Because most people don’t care about a long-term vision and they only care about their own short-term vision. One of which consists of self-talk that starts something like “I don’t know..” This, I’ve found is a horrible focal point, one that I like to overwrite when I can. and i mean REALLY, then you can escape it. On the third day after taking the test, as I woke up to grab my Gatorade (which was the only thing I could stomach) it hit me: I don't want a child. Many kids don’t have very understanding parents. Unless you have some terrible illness possible bro . Sorry for the depressing rant-if you read it, thanks. To me, if someone genuinely feels that depressed, wanting to end it makes sense. I'm not afraid to die. be so mad at yourself if you have to, hate yourself for being miserable, and turn that high energy and unleash it on changing yourself. He asks me where I want to eat, what movie I want to see, what I want for Christmas. Anyway, I'm here if you'd like to talk. I don't have a passion for anything. I just wish they/society in general could be more understanding. Cut them out for good. you just gotta make the effort. However, thinking about your unfortunate past will only instigate the feeling of bitterness and sadness. With change comes reinvention. I still feel the same way and I think I’ll always feel like this. More mountains than you can shake a stick at. The need to stop living is stronger in some. And it will be okay. I hate people. I’m trying to break through but I just get in this head space sometimes that’s hard to get out of. 24% VAT in everything you buy, unless it is a dairy product or food. Wanting to leave is not selfish nor is it cowardly. It's an injustice to think that you will. I have social anxiety. But people who live a truly fulfilling and successful life don’t … Expect many conversations to strike up with folks you don't know. Someone, anyone, will always be there to tell you they love you. We are working on fixing some of these problems, so check back in ten years. I have been counting the days until I go away to college. Mostly because of crippling daily anxiety and also extremely low self confidence/self hatred. I don't know what it is. I agree with you. I hope that you find hope. I want to travel and see things. I will leave chronic pain, anxiety, panic, and depression forever and it will awesome. Devotion, responsibility, and thought. If you have any questions, happy to help. Those who do not experience it have no idea. Even if it's a stranger, a pastor, a drug dealer, a gang member, it doesn't matter. I don't want to do anything, and I'm sure as hell not going to reproduce, so I don't benefit humanity, or have a reason to live outside of that. I had my first anxiety attack today followed by another. I don't want to live Anymore. get up and fight. But I have found some relief in life. The people are really genuine and friendly. That's why we have political parties like Golden Dawn that wants to get rid of them. I can’t believe this post was almost 6 months ago. If you have something you really want to pursue, then you must be able to live with some amount of discomfort in order to do that. I can say for a fact that after everything I've been through, if some stranger came to me crying right now and told me they needed someone, I would listen with the most open heart I could. Does it suck to live in Greece these days? I’m slowly going where you are and hope you can bounce out of it. We get a lot of tourists especially in summer and the people try to rip them off as much as they can asking for insane prices for something that is relatively cheap. Depression and anxiety are so damn common these days. "I Don't Want to Live on this Planet Anymore" is an expression and reaction image often used to show disgust or disappointment with others. Do it. If you look to the future you don’t have to worry about the present. Factories keep closing everyday, they are being moved to neighbor Balkan countries due to low HDI and very cheap working hands. By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. Watch this Vice Documentary: http://youtu.be/bO0vPGRcn9c, New Zealand. The truth is, most people don’t work hard. Some days are still very hard and the anxiety & pain are always there. imagine all the hatred and hurt and pain youve felt attacked you at once. I don't want to live near people at all. Unfortunately as you understand, committing suicide hurts those around you. Despite what everyone here is saying: “life is worth living” etc, I want to let you know what I feel. Nothing will ever feel right within myself and I will never be satisfied with my life, I never have. I know. i used to be like that. There were days when all I could say is "Everything should be fine, but I'm depressed so I'm a failure." I love you, OP. I know it probably seems like there is no good left in this world, or in people. You are forced to work overtimes without getting payed just to make sure your boss will not fire you. Yo man. It’s hard, though, to know what goal to set when you don’t know what you want. I don’t know if I want to live anymore Tw: suicidal thoughts I’ve felt suicidal in my past but always denied it, this is the first time I’ve ever contemplated it. I really just don’t want to be alive anymore. Fuck happiness, just do something in the moment that you like. But even then, happiness comes from within you, I have terrible mental disorders lol I think it’s comparable. But happiness is like the moon, it wanes and waxes and sometimes it's just not there, and other times you are beaming with it. Thank you. If you don't do what you need to do, you'll never get what you want. I have never experienced it before and do not wish it on my worst enemy. The number of middle class people keeps fading away. But nothing out of this world, there are secure zones and there are no curfews, like other countries in Central America. Wanna learn a new craft? I don't have the motivation to do anything with my life. I'm from Costa Rica, generally it's pretty nice, depending of where you go it's rainy or humid. And thanks for the gold kind stranger, I have no idea what it does but I'll definitely make sure to find out. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. youll feel rage its happening to you - WELL NO MORE! FUCK them. I can honestly say that everyone has suicidal thoughts when it gets rough, most people just don't talk about it. think of it as a positive feedback - itll just keep getting deeper into darkness UNLESS you put the breaks on it yourself and make a move. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. this is universal advice. I do not live on a Greek Island overlooking the blue Mediterranean but I live in the second biggest city of Greece, Thessaloniki. I can't kill myself because I don't want to burden my family. The thing is that I don't know what else I want to do. You matter. I’m just so tired and fed up with dealing with the stress everyday. Lot of taxes in electricity bills, water and basic things. That's why we have 700,000 civil servants in a 10,000,000 population country. Are we really that high up on people's list of countries to visit/live? I know I’m depressed due to a lot of things. If it were my grand son, I’d probably have that conversation with the parents and see if they want me to talk to their kid or not. Staring at literally ANYTHING and feeling like you hate it, just because it's there, where you want there to be nothingness. Thank you for that. No animals can kill you. If they want to come protest us, you know what Lars, I welcome it. This is such a big one. but let me tell you. Huge tax evasion, not because we are greedy but because we don't trust our goverment anymore with our money. I hope you find your way out of this nightmare too. Even if, by some stretch, you prove me wrong and someone hands it all to you, you won't keep it. And trust me, talking helps SOOO much more than you know. Cookies help us deliver our Services. (Lookin at you Australia). They don't have the skills to represent our nation but they still get elected because of stupid people. I have hopes and dreams but I'm starting to think that they won't work out, I don't have a lot of friends I have trouble making friends and I feel like nobody likes me. ___ Today I Will Be a Man. Our only hope for profit is our tourism. Forget Your Past Failures. I don't know what it was. Why did you pick Austin if you hate the weather there? Not gonna lie, you have to watch out where you walk in San Jose. I am alone, I don't care if people feel the same as me, I don't like people. I've taken up smoking cigarettes about three months ago. I've been depressed a lot of my life. I don’t know if you drink or not but I had the first hand experience of stopping drinking and my self harm thoughts got much more manageable. No kids, so I would not orphan anybody. Writing or reasoning through my thoughts helped me feel less helpless being depressed. Wanna draw? YOU are worth more than depression can have a hold of you. Always wanted to visit at least. What do I do? It can be found in life. The things you do matter. Whoever or whatever is making you like this. I don't want the pregnancy experience. I don't know you, and I don't have to. I just kinda lost the drama even tho life often sucks or disappoints. If you were dead, you can't console those mourning your death, particularly by suicide. your sad life has nothing to lose so try and make it unsad (i told myself this too). I hope that you find relief. Or is it cheaper? and if you hate it still, hit the gym and stick with it. I’m 18 years old … For 21 years I had the same thoughts of feeling like it would ALWAYS get worse. Universities are being controlled by political parties. I've also in the past said exactly the same thing. Sometimes, we don’t have enough money to do all of the things we want to do. Or if not, know that another stranger on the internet has felt your pain and cares about you. While life can throw us curveballs, the truth is most people are not willing to do the work it takes to achieve what they want. You have higher chances of getting a position because you know someone rather than getting it because you got the required skills. I can say for a fact that after everything I've been through, if some stranger came to me crying right now and told me they needed someone, I would listen with the most open heart I could. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. People cannot comprehend a life where the only emotion that you are able to experience is pain. 111 votes, 115 comments. I am a widow and hate where I live. They want to get, get, get with the most minimal amount of giving. I’m 72 (but 30 on the inside). Here’s how. But eventually I had a break through. I know some people can relate to this. You climb a mountain, and you get halfway, and you realize that your way is a dead end. There are a lot of strangers out there that I can guarantee would be willing to listen if you cried and begged them to please hear your story. But if you give up, you forfeit any possibility of things changing or improving. If you don’t know who you are and what you want, it makes it a lot harder to move forward in your life. When you feel like you add nothing of value to anyone else's life, including your own, the option is pondered. you want to love yourself? you can reverse the hormones affecting your brain with your feelings. Why? Do not let yourself suffer please. I don’t know how old you all are. Almost no part of me wants to live anymore. There is always discomfort but adjust to it. i stopped saying never. However, in the case of designing a new life path, it can be very useful to take a look at what you don’t want. In my opinion, it is a brave thought. I don’t know what exactly but I know I have the biggest desire to believe in something. I think it's more that society realizes that you can find happiness but it takes time. And it was hard. I don't think nursing will be a good fit for me. Why shouldn't it be okay for me to kill myself when everyone has already told me to do it? Anyway, I have rambled on enough I think. Redditors who live there, why should they not want to live there? If you don’t have a job that you love but are still stuck with it, look for better options or you can simply indulge in your hobbies as a happy past time. dont let it take a hold of you again. WHAT HAVE YOU GOT TO LOSE than TRY. I just don’t know where to go and am afraid to make a … But there ARE still good people. your brain is deeply affected by bad hormones. I just can’t stand the guilt of what it would do to my friends and family if I killed myself. You never know when your hobby turns into a successful business venture. I didn’t have a choice about moving to my current home after my husband died 4 years ago. It’s Saturday and I’ve been wandering around filling in time. Like mentioned below, it is dangerous. You need to take that loathing and hate and channel it into something positive. I haven’t been taking good care of myself this week. when youre that indeep you see no hope and you cant fathom hope, you feel entirely stuck and trapped that you believe it and dont see any exits. Edit2: Should have added this before but this officially make my most upvoted and commented thread ever, keep em coming. Aucklander here so I'll be focusing a bit on Auckland: everything is expensive, compared to the U.S, except health care and education; house prices are crazy in Auckland and Christchurch, our largest and third largest cities respectively; we lack the scale for some cool things that larger places have, eg. But now I get older I don’t want to end up with nothing in 10 years…. You can go hunting/fishing everywhere and not see another person for days. He can't even speak proper English, hell he can't even speak Greek. I just don't. “I don’t deserve to live” sometimes means I don’t want to face that I have needs. We don't have a lot of ticket inspectors therefore almost 40% of the attendants don't have a ticket. The Law of Attraction is clear on never focusing on what we don’t want. If someone’s life is truly unhappy they should have the right to end it. happiness doesnt appear on your lap, happiness takes effort. I have recently been dealing with anxiety and depression due to medical reasons. It's okay to be unhappy, it's okay to be miserable and hate your current situation/life. There is no point. For example, I want … I feel like chicken shit. But one of these days, my parents will die and my wife will leave....and I will be free to do what I think is right. You know what you want, you just don’t want to admit it. There’s an excellent mountain climbing analogy to this. Using your knowledge of what you don’t want. There are also many reasons people don’t have sex, even it’s something they desperately want. We all have made mistakes or someone close has hurt us at some point in our lives. All people, yes, even you. You see that if you want to get to the top, you’ll have to get down, find another way, and climb back up from the beginning. The minimum wage keeps getting lower and lower, it used to be 800€/mo and soon will be 550€/mo. You have better chances finding a job as an immigrant rather than Greek, because bosses take advantage of the system and hire people for ridiculously low wages and without insurance. Wanna go on a walk in the rain? There is a lot of corruption in our goverment that takes bribes and steals money. There are either lower middle class, poor or very rich. I hate everyone. I have worked so hard to drag myself out of that dark, dark place I hope to never go back to. It doesn't have to be a direct fix for your issues, you simply must keep going. I tried to commit suicide several years ago and don't know how I didn't succeed. It is more expensive than other countries in Latin America, but it's definitely cheaper than Europe/North America. r/AskReddit is the place to ask and answer thought-provoking questions. Hi. I've been through this full forced. I had a suicide attempt this past May followed by months of therapy. Suicide isn't the answer, it never will be. You just need to do positive things every day, because the end goal is inner peace to this turmoil. Have you ever gotten to the root of why you feel this way? And I'm only 35. like and subscribe for nothing in returnEnjoy some skittles! A man of principle, work, and character. Lots of Riots, every second month there are riots in Athens and Salonica. Watch: How to Set a Goal When You Don’t Know What You Want. You are not alone in your feelings, and your life can improve if you let it. 31.0m members in the AskReddit community. Example: Zagorakis (Greek Soccer Player that was the MVP of Euro 2004 final) was elected on European Elections recently because he was famous. Everything about you matters. You never know when your hobby turns into a successful business venture. We want to be a certain type of person. Why do they get so fucking mad when they're the ones who told you to just do it already? I love you, OP. By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. Sometimes, life is uncomfortable. However, I don't just want to be a … I’m trying really hard to dig myself out of it through therapy it’s just really really hard to climb out when you’re in this deep. I want people to protest things that they don’t see as right. Waking up every morning and the first thought on your mind is ending it all. Do it. I look at it like being able to wake up from a nightmare that won't stop. Reprinted here with permission, is a heartfelt declaration to being the best man we all know we can be. Edit: Holy shit, my inbox will be visiting Leonard Nimoy very soon (this is a joke, please do not take offense.) Insane gas prices which is mostly tax from our goverment. It has been a living nightmare for me and it’s progressively getting worse. For tourists, I think it's very nice, everyone seems so friendly and relaxed, but you have to be careful with scammers and people behind your money. I told myself it was okay to be depressed. Like nothing about me or anything I did was ever even CLOSE to good enough. Depression makes my brain go into hyper "fix it" mode (before it crashes). I don’t want to slow down or admit I need a break. And thanks for the gold kind stranger, I have no idea what it does but I'll definitely make sure to find out. Draw. Anyway, that's not what you're asking. On a Greek Island overlooking the blue blue Mediterranean. If you haven't figured out what's tormenting you, locate it, and eradicate it. Press J to jump to the feed. I Don’t Want to Live Anymore: 11 Ways to Get Unstuck 1. Even once you work through your problems, you won't be happy all the time. Man it feels like I'm on The Truman Show where people talk about NZ like it's the best place on Earth whenever we're mentioned on reddit. Wow, thank you for your response. I don't even like to hold babies, much less give birth to one. I'm hugging you so hard in my mind right now <3. Other than them and a few friends, no one would notice or care about my being. It's Awful. And trust me, talking helps SOOO much more than you know. if youre willing to throw away your life because of how bad it is. I’m so indecisive. good theme parks; country is young so we don't have much in the way of nice (read: old) architecture, we've got natural scenery up the wazoo but not so much of the man-made kind; Auckland and Wellington are our two largest cities and both are hilly as fuck, so good luck if you want to ride a bike; limited public transport (again, lack of scale hurts us here, but also bad planning in the past), especially Auckland, not sure about Wellington; no direct route to Auckland International Airport, so you'll end up driving through suburbs to get to/from the airport; thin ozone layer, so you'll sunburn easily unless you're diligent about wearing sunscreen or don't go outside for long periods, and of course more chance of skin cancer; earthquakes, except for the upper half of the north island. The roads really suck, the nature is awesome, some places are very polluted, but nothing outrageous. Make a list of what you don’t want and then pivot it to what you do want. I hate existing. No matter how misguided in my opinion they are. I wouldn’t dump my own feelings onto the child, but I’d listen to what he said and try to be as supportive and helpful as I could. I'm very shy with no people skills. Having a life plan and vision and knowing your purpose and how you want to live your life are the foundations to building your confidence, resilience, courage, and accountability. I don’t think there is any solution to my problems, except to just get out there and do it. They don't know what it's like to no longer see life in color....to no longer taste anything. Don't worry so much about the end result of satisfaction or happiness, that all comes with time, for now, it important that you give your anxiety and depression the acknowledgement it deserves, and then, you do something positive. Around 30% on 25+ and almost 60% on 18-25. I want to believe in something. 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